Term of Award

Spring 2021

Degree Name

Doctor of Education in Curriculum Studies (Ed.D.)

Document Type and Release Option

Dissertation (open access)

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Creative Commons License
This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution 4.0 License.


College of Education

Committee Chair

Delores Liston

Committee Member 1

Grigory Dmitriyev

Committee Member 2

Pam Wells

Non-Voting Committee Member

Lucy Bush


This autobiographical inquiry will explore my own experiences with physical abuse, sexual abuse, and neglect. Using the method of currere as a lead theory. The four-step process – regressive, progressive, analytical, synthetic – helped me work towards understanding the parts of myself affected by these traumas. Investigation of my own family’s generations of abuse as well as reflecting on these experiences helped me deconstruct my own story as I search for my own meaning and purpose. This study utilized aesthetics, depth psychology, and place as central themes in this work. I learned the valued of active imagination and the role it plays in psychic healing. Individuation allows one to assimilate into their own geographical place, into their own family system, and into their own psyche. This strengthens the individual’s own psychological make up providing them with a stronger psyche economy.

Warning – This work focuses on the issues of childhood trauma such as physical abuse, sexual abuse, and emotional neglect, which may generate secondary trauma with readers. Please read with caution.

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