Term of Award

Spring 2011

Degree Name

Doctor of Education in Curriculum Studies (Ed.D.)

Document Type and Release Option

Dissertation (open access)

Copyright Statement / License for Reuse

Creative Commons License
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Department of Curriculum, Foundations, and Reading

Committee Chair

Marla Morris

Committee Member 1

Ming Fang He

Committee Member 2

Delese Wear

Committee Member 3

John Weaver

Committee Member 3 Email



This dissertation is a pathography, my experience as a mother dwelling with illness which began because of my son's illness. The purpose of this dissertation is two-fold: to examine my Self as a mother dwelling with illness so that I may begin to work through repressed emotions and to further complicate the conversation begun by Marla Morris (2008) by illuminating the ill person's voice as one which is underrepresented in the canon. This dissertation is written autobiographically and analyzed psychoanalytically. The subjects of chaos, the Self, and motherhood are examined as they apply to my illness. In addition to psychoanalysis, this dissertation draws from illness narratives, pathographies, and other stories of illness as a way to collaborate voices within the illness community.

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